Being Human

[roverl0616]

I am a human being, just like everyone else is, even though at many times in my life I wish I wasn't because of how hard it's been for me to be one. What I did know was it was because of the way I was living before I got into recovery that was making this so hard for me. I never set out trying to make things hard for myself, no one ever does, but it happens to a lot of people, and when it does we all end up not liking who we've become. I am one of those people who has done just that, and just as easy as it was for me to become someone like this, it is just as easy to make things easy for myself. The hardest thing about me doing this is that I have to be able to see that I need to and then want to do this, and for the longest time I refuse to do just that, and it wasn't because I couldn't see this, it was because I really liked being the way I was. Because I thought I was better off being like this then having to be like everyone else and I couldn't see myself become like they were. I had got into a real mess and everyone in recovery knows all about being in this mess, and showed me there was a way out of all of this so I could become what I already was, as human as anyone else is.