Spiritual Dead End

[MajestyJo]

Many times we come to a place were we feel very alone and feel that God has forsaken us. We don't seem to be connected to God and we don't seem to be getting any direction.

I was in this place not to long ago, and I came to the realization that: l) I wasn't hearing what I wanted to hear; 2) It wasn't time to move into a new direction because I hadn't completed and finished the feelings concerning where I had been and what I had done; and 3) I was still in the blame mode and not willing to take responsibility for my part.

A lot of what blocked me from God was my anger, and my inability to deal with the hurt, pain and rejection. Not only was their feelings in the present, but there were buried feelings that I hadn't dealt with and were in denial about.

When I am angry, I can't get to God and He can't get to me. Denial is a blanket which we often draw around us which prevents us from seeing and dealing with things until we come to a time where we are feeling like looking at and dealing with them, or the pain is so bad that we have to face the issue because staying where we are at is too painful and it is time to let go.

Something I posted in 2004. I was fifteen years sober.

In today, I don't stay stuck as long or I am aware of where I am heading, and I can let go and let God much easier. It is especially true when I get caught up in busy, and I am back into Self, whether I am helping others or not. I need to work on my own inventory, instead of taking that of others or helping, others do theirs.

Each day is a new beginning. When I remember that and stay in today, I never had it so good. I know that my God is with me because I daily invite Him there.