Food for Thought for Over Eaters Anonymous

[MajestyJo]

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Sanity

Once, a long time ago, I was able to eat a small amount of extra food between meals and then stop. I enjoyed it very much. Over the years, that small amount became more and more. Somewhere along the line, I crossed the boundary of rational eating and moved into an area of insane bingeing.

Now, when the old urge comes for a small amount of extra food, I need to remember that I am incapable of stopping after a reasonable amount. For me, the first compulsive bite is now the point of no return. Once I take it, I cross immediately into insanity.

How do I remember? I need protection against the arrogant, willful delusion that "This time I will be able to handle it; this time I will get away with cheating just a little bit." How can I protect myself?

Step One says that we are powerless over food. From sad experience, I know this to be a fact. Step Two says that we "came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity." My protection comes from this Higher Power.

Keep me sane, Lord.

Didn't think I was insane, so how can I want to be kept sane! LOL! When reality sunk in, I realized I was off the wall. It is a disease of perception, what ever your drug of choice is in today. The substance is but a symptom of my dis-ease, the problem is me.

Like this, it reminded me that my drug of choice is always more. I have that addictiver personality, that thankfully has been healed. There are times, I can't stop at one, but for the most part, I can eat 1/4 or 1/2 bag of potato chips. Can't say the same for a donut. I can do it when it comes to a dark chocolate candy bar, especially if it is a big one and yet give me a box of chocolates and my mind says, "They are only small."

It is the thinking behind the eating that can be insane. It is following the thoughts with action that causes me trouble.