New to this and checking in.

[SoberRed]

It's been 7 weeks since I left the treatment center that helped me get sober. Today I am 4 months and 14 days clean. I'm so lonely it worries me. I left earlier than my counselor thought I should and sometimes I feel he was right. I know that feeling lonely was a key contributor to my drinking but I wanted my life back. I wanted to test the sober waters. I unfortunately have not carried through in anything I need in order to stay sober. I haven't met with my sponsor, I haven't gone to one meeting and I haven't looked at the big book in 7 weeks. I have such an issue going out and meeting others. I remain in my cacoon and hide.
I need friends.