God Won’t Break a Promise

[MajestyJo]

God won't break a promise. I try not to make them if I can't keep one. I always try to say, "God willing."

When I read this, my thought was, "I am where I am as a result of decisions made." Sometimes I am a victim of other people's choices, but often their choices were a result of something I did or did not do. It can be real or imaginary. It isn't something to take on, unless it is mine to change and correct, so I don't take it from one job to another. I found this was true for any relationship.

I found this to be true for the time between husband #1 to #2, almost 10 years, and by the time I got to my first relationship in recovery at 7 years sober, it just couldn't work. All those relationships after my marriage ended, which were never grieved or processed or owned, were dumped on him.

It was the same for all the jobs over the years. It didn't help when my last boss decided I needed a helper. He asked the unemployment worker to find another worker like me. She told him, in front of me (naughty), that should couldn't because when they made me, they through away the key (major ego strokes), and he said, "Well do the best you can." He later fired me and kept her on only to have her quit and had to beg and negotiate for me to come back. I ended up quitting because he bounced my pay cheque. Total insanity, on my part and on his. I realized I owed an amend for my part, it wasn't all his to own, which he never would to my way of thinking. That doesn't matter, it wasn't about him, it was about me and me living a life of sobriety.