Secrets???

[MajestyJo]

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

You are reading from the book Today's Gift

The universe is made up of stories, not atoms.
—Muriel Rukeyser

There was once a storyteller who told many people of her life. They listened and heard their own stories in hers. Hearing her story, they didn't feel so lonely anymore. Hearing about someone else who had lost things and people she loved, who had felt lonely, scared, and unsure of herself, let them feel less crazy when similar things happened to them.

Because of the healing they felt through hearing someone else's story, some of the listeners decided to become storytellers themselves. As they recounted their stories, they found that letting out secrets that had bothered them for years freed them to feel good about who they were and who they had always wanted to be.

What secrets can I share today?

If I find that my stories can help others, there isn't much I won't share about my recovery journey. They say, "We are only as sick as our secrets." A lot of mine were hidden deep down and took a long time to be aware of them, let alone bring them out into the light to heal.

People have asked me, "Why didn't you deal with that in your 4th Step?" It was because I wasn't aware, had forgotten, or had hid under a blanket of denial, and not willing to deal with them. Recovery is a process. Many times, I didn't know the true feelings behind the secrets, let alone able to truly express them and identify them for what they were. As my perception healed, my awareness and ability to admit, made secrets not an option. Step 4 is an inventory of what is there in the moment. If you can't find it, it doesn't make the list.