I think everyone of us in recovery wishes we all could go back to a time and place before things had become so difficult for us, at least I know I do. What I didn't know is that even though I never asked for or even wanted any of the damage that was done to me like it or not, it now becomes part who I am. And I can do with it whatever I want, but it will never go away and will always be part of me for now on. What recovery has done for me is it takes all of this and uses it to my advantage so from having this damage I can be helped, and I can help some one else like myself who never wanted to be damaged, yet we all still are. Crying over what has happened or wishing that it never did won't make me better and has proved only to make matters worse for me when I have done this. Instead of doing this I've learned from being in recovery how I can accept the things that have happened even though I don't like the fact that they have. From me being able to do this, and show others that I have, is what gives all of us hope and from having this we all get the power we need to raise above all that has happened to any of us, and we all can now rejoice in the fact that we can.