FOOD FOR THOUGHT- OA/AUGUST 2014

[MajestyJo]

Friday, August 1, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Promptings

If we are listening, we will hear promptings from the inner voice. Often they are suggestions for small acts of kindness and love. Sometimes they are urgings to do a difficult deed in order to correct a wrong or to apologize for a mistake. Whatever the prompting, we are free to ignore it or act on it.

Often, ignoring the prompting would appear to be the easiest course. Why should we go out of our way to help someone else, particularly if that person is a stranger? Apologies are frequently embarrassing and deflate our pride. Reaching out to someone with love makes us vulnerable to rejection, and we fear exposure.

In the long run, to ignore the promptings of our inner voice is to commit spiritual suicide. These promptings are intended for our growth, and if we do not grow in love, we will atrophy and decay. Through the Twelve Steps, our Higher Power leads us to do many things, which we would prefer to avoid, but which ensure our recovery.

I pray for willingness to follow the promptings of the inner voice.

Prompting is a polite word. How about getting our attention? Letting what goes around comes around and bites you in the a$$ until you learn.

The Inner Voice is there, I discounted it for years. I didn't know it was Good Orderly Direction. I was sure it was the devil, or the fearful God who was going to strike me dead for all the things I did that were called sin.

I knew that Jesus loved me, was told that as soon as I could hear and speak. I just didn't think that God believed in me, and according to the old tapes from the church and family, I was doomed to a living hell. Life became hell, I reached out and found a loving and forgiving God.

[MajestyJo]

Saturday, August 2, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Motivation

Most of us fight the temptation to be lazy, to get by with doing the minimum instead of our best. When we were children, we had parents and teachers who urged us on to greater efforts. As adults, we have to depend more on internal motivation and less on the exhortations of others.

Working for strictly material goods is not enough to provide the impetus and enthusiasm we need. It is our Higher Power who gives us our talents and abilities, and it is His plan for their use, which we seek to follow.

Doing less than the best we can is short-changing ourselves. We miss the satisfaction that comes from stretching as far as we can. We also miss the opportunity to exceed former limits. The more we do, the more we are able to do.

Motivation comes from our Higher Power and can only be received, as we are willing to act. Thinking and planning have their place, but it is action, which generates fresh enthusiasm.

May I live up to the maximum of my abilities today.

I did good until I went into the pharmacy downstairs and bought a Magnum Infinity Chocolate Ice Cream bar.

I bought fruit and vegetables and good things to eat. Just had to have that treat that I feel I deserve. Thankfully, the thoughts didn't go into 'more' and I was able to stop eating after I ate it. That is the problem, one is too many, a thousand is never enough, if you let your disease take you, instead of you taking your disease and turning it over to your Higher Power. So glad this is a one day at a time program and I get to practice, practice, practice.

[MajestyJo]

Sunday, August 3, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Speaking from the Heart

Through the OA fellowship, we offer each other mutual support. Since we believe that the Higher Power works through the group, what one of us is prompted to say is probably just what another member needs to hear.

Sometimes we are reluctant to speak of what is in our heart for fear of being embarrassed, belittled, or betrayed. We are so accustomed to masking our true feelings that we often lose touch with them. In OA, we are assured that what we say will be received in a spirit of acceptance and love. We do not need to be afraid of revealing our deeper selves.

It is a healing experience to belong to a group, which is dedicated to honest communication with a minimum of game playing. When we make a genuine attempt to describe where we are in our program, we are met with a warm and supportive response. Our Higher Power opens the way for meaningful communication and mutual love.

Open our hearts to You and to each other.

They say the longest journey we will take in recovery is from our head to our heart. Many of us don't see themselves that way, they don't realize that they have erected barriers and put in blocks, and they are talking off the top of their head. They are still looking outside of themselves instead of going within. That is where the heart is.

[MajestyJo]

Monday, August 4, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

God's Time

When we feel under pressure and fear that there will not be enough time to do the things we think we need to do, it helps to stop for a moment and remember that all time is God's. We may be wanting to do more than we should in the same way that we wanted to eat more than we needed. Exchanging compulsive overeating for compulsive activity is no solution to our problem.

Turning over our lives to our Higher Power as we begin each day allows Him to schedule what we will do and when we will do it. He knows our capabilities even better than we do, and He does not give us more to do than we can manage. To benefit from His guidance, we need to stay in touch with our inner selves and not get swept away by external demands.

In the past, we may have alternated between periods of non-productive lassitude and frantic bursts of activity. As we maintain ourselves on an even keel physically by abstaining from compulsive overeating, we learn moderation and order as God shows us how to use the time He gives us.

Please order the time which You give me every day.

God's Time, what a beautiful thing. How many times did we give up and lost our patience and tried to make things happen or give God a little hint or push in the way you would have Him go.

Like the last line. To me, when I live one day at a time, the whole day is His. Even when I fall asleep on the job, make a decision that leads me away, He brings me back. I have been given a second chance at life, why should I pick up things that will kill me. Sometimes I slip and sometimes I don't always realize where something will take me, but the biggest error is going away from God. No matter what the substance, it all leads to the same soul sickness.

[MajestyJo]

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Future Phobia

Irrational worry about the future may have triggered eating binges before we found the OA program. Learning to live one day at a time is a necessary part of controlling our disease. Our instinct for security must not be allowed to run riot any more than the other instincts we are learning to control.

Trusting our Higher Power today ensures that we will trust Him tomorrow also. We do not know what the future holds for us, but we are assured of God's continuing care and support. To entertain irrational worries about what might or might not happen is to doubt the Power, which is restoring us to sanity. When we take Step Three without reservations, we give up our crippling anxieties.

We do not expect that life will be a rose garden in the future, any more than it is right now. There are problems and disappointments and pains to deal with. What we do expect is the strength to cope with whatever our Higher Power gives us, realizing that the difficult experiences are often the ones from which we learn the most.

May faith in You blot out fear.

Phobias are a part of my disease and when I am acting out in them, I have disconnected from my God and allowed fear to erode my faith.

My faith doesn't blot out fear, it replaces it. My faith heals it and allows me to have a change and allows me to not continue acting out in my dis-ease.

Phobias and paranoia are big issues with addicts. I can't, God can.

[MajestyJo]

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Planting Seeds

The closer we walk with our Higher Power, the more effective our Twelfth Step work is. We always remember that the best thing we can do for other compulsive overeaters is to maintain our own abstinence. Beyond that, we are given opportunities to spread the word as we go about our daily activities.

Mentioning what OA is doing for us may open the door to a new life for one of our friends. It may be a casual acquaintance or even a stranger who needs to hear about the program. Our instincts can guide us as to the best time and place to share news of our recovery.

Often, we may not know what effect, if any; our witness has had on another person. We may be annoyed if we are unable to "sell" the program to someone we think should have it. The results of our Twelfth Step work are in the hands of our Higher Power, and positive effects may show up long after we have planted a seed.

Show me where I may plant seeds of recovery.

I was told that I had to make sure I planted the seeds in fertile soil. Once they were planted, I could nurture them, but it wasn't up to me, it was their journey, their God, and I had to let, and pray that they will grow into a vessel and channel to carry on the message of recovery to others and in turn, pay it forward by sewing their own seeds.

[MajestyJo]

Thursday, August 7, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Keep It Simple

Complicated food plans and complicated lives work against us in this program. We compulsive overeaters have a hard time making decisions about food, and the more simple our menus, the better. We also tend to overextend ourselves in other areas, dissipating energy, which we need for working our program.

Our three meals a day can be nourishing and attractive without being elaborate. If we spend too much time and energy planning and preparing our food, we run the risk of reactivating our obsession. Too much thinking about food usually leads to overeating and invariably produces mental turmoil.

For our peace of mind and emotional serenity, we need to keep the mechanics of our lives as simple as possible. If the spirit is to be free, it cannot be shackled by over concern with material things.

May I keep life simple today and use my energies for working the program.

Always a good suggestion to follow, my sponsor said, "A simple program for people who like to complicate things."

[MajestyJo]

Friday, August 8, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Reflecting Light

We are made to reflect the goodness and light of our Higher Power. In order to do this, we need to be as free as possible of the negative emotions and self-will which block out God's light. The light is always here. It is our job to keep ourselves free from the entanglements and hang-ups, which cloud our vision.

Our primary means of staying in the light is to abstain from compulsive overeating. Without clean abstinence, we become muddled in our thinking and in our emotions. God's light and love can shine through our lives if we are physically ready to receive and reflect.

Working the Steps frees us from the negative emotions, which block out the light. At first we may have wondered how the Twelve Steps were related to our problems. As we progress in the program, we see that without the spiritual growth, which they facilitate, we cannot be fully open to the light from our Higher Power.

Prepare me to reflect Your light.

Didn't do a good job today. I bought brownies and before I knew it they were all gone. There are 8 in a pkg. and round like a cupcake, the only thing is it takes two brownies to make a whole cupcake. I had two cupcakes, and when they kept calling me, an hour late I had another one and emptied the bag.

It is bad enough that they are chocolate brownies, but I added chocolate icing. I didn't stop to think of them as stuffing, fear, and comfort. I don't like Friday and ever week it is a confrontation between my son and myself.

I did meditation earlier in the day, again when I posted, but in between I had already bought the brownies. I have to forgive myself and ask my God for forgiveness. I thought they were better than taking pills, but it just goes to show you, the substance comes in many forms and they all lead to wanting more. Just for today,I choose not to buy any more brownies.

I knew it was wrong but I turned a blind eye and blocked the light.

[MajestyJo]

Saturday, August 9, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Daily Inventory

When we are not functioning up to par, we need to find out where the problem is. If the day begins to fall apart and we feel overwhelmed and unable to cope, it may be a good idea to stop and take inventory.

Examining the quality of our abstinence is a good place to begin. Have we permitted thoughts of making a small exception here and there? Are we dwelling too much on what we will have for the next meal? Did we make a substitution, which gave us more carbohydrates than we could handle?

If the problem is not with abstinence, then it must be in our emotional or spiritual life. Are we harboring resentments, which are poisoning our outlook? Have we made a mistake, which we are unwilling to admit? Is there something we need to do for a family member that we are procrastinating about doing? Are we denying a legitimate need of our own?

Grant me the honesty to confront my weaknesses.

So important to my recovery. I went to meetings for about 10 days and just about every meeting I went to was Step 10. I went to a Big Book study out of town, thinking to escape Step 10, they were reading Step 10 from the Big Book. I went to Al-Anon and it was Step 10. Went to a 12 & 12 group I seldom go to, and they were discussing Step 10, I finally got the message when I went to NA and realized that I was doing the Step in the evening, and it was a recovery tool, to be used all day long.

[MajestyJo]

Sunday, August 10, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

No Compromises

Where abstinence is concerned, there can be no compromising. In order to control our illness, we are willing to go to any lengths to maintain abstinence. Nothing else is as important to us.

If we are eating in a restaurant where the right kind of vegetable is not available, we can order two salads or do without a vegetable for one meal, rather than substitute a starch which will activate our disease. We learn what we can handle and what is not for us, and then we act on that knowledge in every situation. To compromise "just this once" is an invitation to trouble.

Just as we have a certain way of eating for the maintenance of our recovery, so we have a way of living based on the principle of rigorous honesty. Honesty in all of our activities is what makes us strong and effective. Where the core principles of our program are concerned, we do not compromise.

By Your grace, may I maintain my integrity in all situations.

So far, so good, no more brownies. Today it was do I get a sub or a pizza. I ended up with a medium mushroom and pepperoni pizza, which I ate half of.

Not the healthiest of choices, but my feet wouldn't take me to the mall Even if I can't eat big meals, I try to graze, a muffin, some fruit, a sandwich, etc. It seems like it is only with brownies that I just can't seem to have just one. God and I are still working on it.

[MajestyJo]

Monday, August 11, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Sloppy Thinking

If we begin to entertain thoughts of slight deviations from our food plan, thoughts of former binge foods, thoughts that maybe once in a while we could eat "normally," we put ourselves on shaky ground. Our disease is never cured, and sloppy thinking can lead to a weakening or loss of control.

"Normal" eating for us is abstinence. Our food plan is what saves us from bizarre eating behavior. There is no such thing as taking a vacation from abstinence.

The less we think about food, the better off we are. To remember the so-called pleasure we once associated with certain foods may cause us to forget the inevitable pain and anguish which eating them eventually produced. We do not want to ever return to the misery of compulsive overeating.

Giving our minds to our Higher Power ensures positive, healthy thinking.

Take my thoughts, Lord, and straighten them out.

Never thought of my thoughts as sloppy. If I think about it, if I don't stop to Hesitate and Meditate before I speak, they could certainly come out that way.

Not too big on organizing and discipline, as I believe in prayer and praying and asking my God for the words I need to say and the clarity and the knowing I need each day. My life is very much going with the flow. I am aware though that the second half of Step One, says my life is unmanageable. My life is unmanageable when managed by me. Control is an illusion. They say we can plan, but don't plan the outcome. That is good when not taken to the extreme because we want to control, people, places and things.

When I try to control my eating, I still think more. I believe that comes under God's Good Orderly Direction.

[MajestyJo]

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

The Beacon

There are times when we get tired and depressed or elated and confused. We are mentally uncomfortable, knowing that something is wrong but unable to pinpoint the trouble. Our first thought may be to reach for food, but we know that way leads to disaster.

We compulsive overeaters have a beacon light for our dark and confused moments. It is our commitment to abstinence. No matter how confused we may be, we can remember that abstinence is the most important thing in our life without exception. Whatever happens, we will not be lost if we hold fast to our abstinence. From the commitment, everything else follows. As long as we do not overeat, we will be able to find our way out of a difficult situation.

Our Higher Power gives us the beacon light of abstinence, and with it He gives guidance out of our perplexities. Patiently waiting until we clearly see His will keeps us from getting lost in the darkness of self-will.

Thank You for the beacon light of abstinence.

Not sure I should respond, went to sleep in my chair, with a bad head ache and woke up stiff and sore with a worse one. It might have helped if I had gone to bed.

When I first saw this reading, I thought 'bacon' and then it grew into "bring home the bacon." It is ironic because I have trouble smelling bacon cooking.

As the reading says, "The beacon of light is there." It is up to me to acknowledge it instead of putting on the mask and shutting it out. Some people seem to find the darkness comforting because that is what they are use to and are afraid of what the light will reveal. It isn't about playing Blind Man's Bluff, it is about bring things to the light so they can heal.

[MajestyJo]

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Be Prepared

We need to be prepared for times when we will be tempted to eat the wrong kind of food. This may mean eating our planned meal before going to an event where the right food may not be available. It may mean adjusting our meal schedule so that we can wait to eat until after an event where the wrong kind of food is served.

In the past, we may have used the excuse of not hurting someone's feelings in order to rationalize a deviation from our food plan. No hostess should expect a guest to consume food to which he or she is allergic. We alone are responsible for what goes into our mouths. If we are faced with food, which will activate our illness, it is better to be hungry than to eat what makes us sick.

When we are willing to go to any lengths to maintain abstinence, we can find a way to deal with dangerous food situations. "No, thank you" is a very useful tool.

May I be prepared for times of temptation.

Like the "No, thank you." It speaks volumes as long as I continue to say it. I can only continue to do so, with the courage and strength that comes from my God.

We go through a grieving process when we lose the foods that we can no longer eat. Self-justification and rationalize are a danger. For example, me saying I can have it is made of chocolate. It is the amount of chocolate and the type of chocolate that I tend to stretch the truth on.

I also needed to be prepared for my disease slipping in, I don't have to physically pick something up, but I can be obsessive and compulsive about certain foods and think my way into eating.

I can allow my emotions to build without dealing with them and applying my program. Just because I have a feeling, doesn't mean I have to act on it. Old behaviours, I don't like this feeling, I don't want to go there, and we reach out for something, anything to stuff it and make it all go away.

[MajestyJo]

Thursday, August 14, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Rationalizing

We compulsive overeaters are experts at making excuses for taking the line of least resistance. Before we entered this program, we could always find a reason for eating. How many times did we say, "Just one little bite can't possibly hurt"?

It is hard to say no to ourselves and to other people, even though we may realize that saying yes would be hurtful to our health or our integrity. We think up reasons for going along with what other people want us to do, rather than "rocking the boat" by standing up for what we know to be essential for our recovery.

Often we convince ourselves by rationalizing that all is well when it is not. Our emotional and spiritual health requires that we examine honestly our behavior and our relationships. When they are not right, we need to take action to correct them.

By Your light, may I see clearly.

Seems to me I was justifying about justifying a few days ago.

We don't have to give a reason for being, and I thought I did. I thought I had to justify my existence, those old tapes were hard to erase. How can you make a new tape when you don't have a clue, you can't know what you have never been taught.

Saying what we think someone else wants us to say, leaves us with no identiy and we live our life through others and lose ourselves.

[MajestyJo]

Friday, August 15, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Inner Tigers

What we fear facing and dealing with is often inside. We may transfer our fear and irritation to external circumstances and the people around us, when what we need to do is look inside. Usually, we are our own worst enemy.

Our fears go back to a time when we were very young and relatively helpless. We may still be afraid of rejection, of being inferior, of being hurt with no one to take care of us. We may have an irrational fear of economic insecurity, which comes from a time when we were aware of financial problems but were too young to understand them.

Whether our inner tigers are real or made out of paper, we need to face them instead of eating to appease them. As we recover from compulsive overeating, many of the fears, which we had tried to bury with food, come to consciousness. With the Power greater than ourselves, we are able to tame the inner tigers.

Secure in Your care, may I not fear self-discovery.

They use to tell us many years ago to put a tiger in the tank.

Sometimes that is good, because it can motivate us to get our rears in gear and get on with life.

Over the years, we forget he is there, and that our insides are often in an uproar, and all the chaos, fears, and bug-a-boos, we think are there, creates a lot of issues we need to deal with. We fear to look, maybe because we know there is a tiger in there and we are fearful, forgetting that he is a friendly tiger.

With our God, we should not fear. Fear is lack of faith and not putting our trust in our God to see us through it.

I believe it says in the Big Book of AA, if you have fear, go back to Step 3.

It doesn't matter what substance got us into this situation, God is willing and able to help us with ALL things. We are asked to put our life into His Care. Not just a portion of it, not just the things we can't control, because control is an illusion. As I have posted many times, because I was told many times, "Control is an Illusion, I don't have the power." When I surrender to God's Will, we are empowered to do what we need to do in today, to stay clean and sober.