[MajestyJo]

Was in that place to my friend, thanks for sharing. No sure if it was so much guilt as insecurities. I didn't relapse physically, but this is a mental, emotional, spiritual, as well as a physical disease. I found I could relapse, long before physically picked up and so grateful to my God for putting people in my path to show me the direction I was heading. It is a direction I can't afford to go. Sometimes, if I had had the money to keep me in the style that I would like to become accustomed to, I just might have picked up.

Words hurt, they can cut to the soul. They cut and bruise deeper when they are reinforced with a slap and a few slugs to go with them. The biggest I got was being pushed into a wall and the imprint of my body was left in the wall. A great reminder to not trust a drunk and to remember what they say, remember what they say, even if it is months ago, and stay out of their way, even though they have to crawl up the stairs, there is enough anger to give them them strength to push you through a wall.

Anger turned into rage for my ex-husband. Anger defused me and motivated me, and if I had been drinking, it quieted me down, and it was a fresh start, and where do we go from here.

It is good to listen, it gets you hit. It is good to listen, so you don't put yourself in a position to be hit in the first place.